I thought I’d found Nirvana. Lela Fox was the queen of sobriety, the alpha of AA, superhero of the 12th step. Peaceful at last, I believed Dude would bring me the devoted partner I’d craved from Day One.And he did.I didn’t know how quickly it would happen or how bizarre it would become.This is the final stop in my rollercoaster story; eighteen years of sobriety when my emotions exploded and my dreams were dashed. The ending: a happy-but-not-sappy transformation when I kicked ass to beat the last obstacle in my sobriety.Gil. With as much denial as in my drunken days, I couldn’t see the truth.I put on a pretty good show; nobody knew I had a sideline wish to die. Something had to change – and it was up to me to change it. I escaped, and Lifetime #9 began with the bumps and bruises desperation brings. Living a pauper’s life finally broke my pride, and my emotions leveled. This long and topsy-turvy life became calm. But I wasn’t finished yet. The Powerless series is a memoir told as a story; a story so twisted that it took seven books to reveal it all. Buckle in for another race through hilarity, stupidity, and drama. This is the shattering end of my zany story about getting drunk, getting sober, and the quest for grace.